To the poeple who stayed 🥂 ❤️

So sup I hope y'all are doing well, as i am writing this i'm superrrrr excited for my 18th BIRTHDAY like wthhhhhh i will be 18 like i just remember being idk 10 or something and now i'm 18 like wow. Okay so if you didnt get it till now i'm the kind of person who is always excited for birthdays like everyones bday its just so special. Trust me ik how everyone thinks that it's childish to be so excited for your bday well then i'm a child who is turning 18. SO coming to the main thing which i wanna let out starting with a great quote (i feel like i'm writing a thesis paper where i give a quote and then i have to explain how that is so relatable in my life 😂😂😂) 

IT'S ALL ABOUT REALIZING THAT, YOU CAN'T PUNISH THE PEOPLE WHO STAYED..FOR THE PEOPLE WHO LEFT.

Okay, so I'm not really trying to make a point here with this quote, but I really believe that sometimes we focus too much on the people who left and forget to appreciate the ones who are still here. Clearly. I mean, I just don't get it if someone leaves us; we don't really have to make them bad people in life right now. That's childish, in my opinion. Instead of blaming someone or saying bad things about them, it's better to assume that they were great to you but that it was time for them to leave. i mean we humans do complicate many things and i get it that it hurts and pretending doesnt help but that doesnt mean that we treat people around us in a bad way or make them feel granted or unwanted. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO HURT OTHER PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE HURTS YOU.In summary, I simply wanted to express my sincere gratitude to everyone who has ever touched my life. I learned a great deal from the people around me about anything from philosophy to living life more idealistically than reality dictates. By God's favor, I had a large number of childhood pals that I now think of as close friends. Let me just say that I am extremely grateful to have everyone in my life, especially my amazing parents.

OKAY, this blog should have been more of self reflection letter or something cause i want to read this after 10 years and be like wth charmi you were so different. 

In the past year, I have personally learned a great deal about myself that has helped me understand why some people are the way they are. I don't know if that makes sense, but maturing is strange; it makes you experience all kinds of emotions, including sorrow, grief, love without boundaries, gratitude, and—most importantly—self-doubt. While we sometimes think that these experiences drain or nearly kill us, in the long run, they actually help us become better people. And by learning many things about myself i have realized that im really not an easy person to be around so first of all thanks to everyone who has even been around me. I am obstinate, I get angry easily when people ignore me, I love and hate myself equally, I can be a little silly, but I also take offense easily, I get jealous easily, and even when I do the right thing, I always feel guilty about hurting someone. I also hate to admit that I am a people-pleaser and, yes, I am always hungry. ALSO i am funny real funny 😂 

IM writing this after celebration of my bday, i will never ever able to express how grateful im for the people i have in my life. I would have never never not even in my wildest dreams thought that my 18th would be in America and then when in january i realized that my 18th will be here but my family won't be with me to celebrate with me so the entire excitement of 18 was somewhere gone but here the friends i have found are really my home away from home cause how weekly i got presents for birthdays and countdowns and that just made me feel like yeahhh bro its 18thh like cmon. you know theres one thing when you have bday in different country you celebrate your bday for three days like legit and same thing happening with me... my loved ones wished me according to indian time zone as well as Chicago time zone and i was holding up like when my mom texted me happy bday i was on edge of crying but i controlled somehow and then my dad send me a voice message in evening and that was it, the moment i heard him saying that he loves me and misses me i cried like a baby. Homesick is a really feeling and actually going through it is really devastating  but then my roomiee the best roommate ever- deesha came up to me and hugged me while i cried saying that my parents are proud and they would never want me to cry, this girl alwayss consoles me no matter for whatever stupid reason im crying for. Also i didn't expected my 12 am birthday celebration to be so amazing like the hype and and the people around me just wow i felt the home away from home yk.. i got letterss ahhhhh best part fr cause i love letters and also some of the best gifts ever. so overall my 18th went really really well, i had fun and i was happy.

PS : this is a very random thing but i wrote something and i just want to share it .....Your life is made up of the minute pieces that are every moment, choice, encounter, person, mistake, lesson, step forward, step backward, heartbreak, love, failure, breakthrough, dream, etc. Every event feeds into the next, and even though it might feel like everything is dispersed right now, you will eventually be able to make the connections between all the many aspects of your life. When you do, you'll realize that you wouldn't be who you are now if your life had been missing even one of those dots. Have faith that everything unfolds in a manner that suits you and as it should. If you stay in that faith, you will be able to achieve the freedom you want.

This is like a really long blog so if you made it till here all the love for you 🫂🫂❤️

XOXO ❤️